The light, the tunnel and all that jazz.

Life happens to you while you are busy making other plans, said a wise being once. (Google says it is John Lennon, so I will go with that for a reference’s sake). 🙂

And in December 2021, life happened, and this time it came with an expansive global spice platter to zhoosh things up and in it was a whole lot of wasabi. #sarcasm

It was a difficult month, to say the least, both personally and professionally. And, I wouldn’t be lying if I said I wanted to whip a magic wand and disappear from the face of the earth.

Triggers spiked, and overall, it was a whole lot of beepoop. There were moments of extreme fatigue and poor eating/sleeping habits. And with the latter came a lot of guilt and paranoia over neglecting physical health.

That said, I am proud of the progress I made over the years in coping and channeling the emotions, letting the month be an exception. To mourn the moments and the people and fight the guilt of that extra slice of cheesy pizza or crazy binging of shows.

Letting things go just for once yet being conscious of when I can bring myself back.

To allow me to have that conversation with the inner me. I must confess it was draining.

I recognize the progress and acknowledge it as one because if that month happened to the old me, I would have either shut down entirely or abused the coping mechanisms.

This is one of the many reasons I believe healing is a conscious every day, every minute effort. It’s tough as it will get ugly, but it will get better at some point. It just has to.

I am sharing this here and now as learning that I hope will help someone/anyone and as a journal entry to look back when I need it.

Happy New Year! 😀

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